My Next Thirty Years

New Years Eve....

Just one of my favorite songs by one of my absolutely favorite groups to share with you all on New Years Eve.

Happy New Year my friends, I am blessed to know each and everyone of you and share this journey with you.

Smell the Wood.....

I've been doing a lot of thinking the past few days. I've been meaning to update this old thing but my life is never quiet it seems and I do need this pesky thing called sleep.

So what have I been thinking about, a bunch of things like what do I want out of 2009, what are my goals and hopes and dreams, was 2008 what I expected of it, what do I want out of me next year on this healthier me journey I am on, what can I do to be a better person.

I have also been thinking about my totally amazing friends, who support me through thick and thin and who are there for me when I want to chuck this whole healthy me thing out the window and eat a box of donuts. I admit it, I have a daily struggle with food. Some minutes it is so very hard other not so much. One thing I am starting next week is personal training 2 days a week on the days I don't have bootcamp.

I know several people have asked me about bootcamp. Here is what I will say about it. Bootcamp is not for the faint of heart. It is hard. the first class I ever took I could not get up and down off a chair for 3 days and I was walking between 3-5 miles, 4 times a week at that point. There are some days now that I still have problems doing it but the end result is always in mind and I do know it is working. I also started bootcamp because it was time to shit or get off the pot pardon my bad language. I needed something. I also go to a small little gym where if I don't get there the owner calls me which is what I need.

So that being said, I do have lots of stuff I am still thinking about but that is okay because life is a journey and I will eventually get the answers I seek.

Catch you all on the flip side.

What a Wonderful Christmas but now.....

We had a wonderful blessed Christmas. We enjoyed spending time together and with our families but now we are taking the house back. It is just too hard with the puppy and all of James' stuff to have the trees up downstairs. We are keeping MIss C's trees up for a bit longer but today the house will be all sparkly clean and new again.

I am going to be taking a trip to Ikea while school is out for a new organizer for the living room which will hopefully help us stay organized a bit better.

Hope you all had a blessed holiday.

One Little Word

I have never done this and never thought about doing this but for 2009 I am going to think of a word. You can read about the One Little Word Concept on Ali's Blog . I am not sure what it is going to be but I do know that it is going to have some kind of significance for this journey I am on.

Catch you on the flip side.

Totally Stole this from Karen

I had never heard this before Karen pointed it out to me and I am totally stealing it for a blog post. Love this but now I have Toto in my head.

Happy Sunday, I'm Procrastinating

I have a list a mile long and I am sitting here writing to you instead of getting it done. It is a icky day. We have rain that is making a mess out of the snow we had on Friday.

Here is what I should be doing

Wrapping presents

working on gift for MIL

Working on sil gift

Frosting cupcakes

Loading music to my Mom's present (we got her an iPod)

Organizing the presents into families

Working on a gift for G

putting together the Teachers gift

Instead I am here not doing anything because I am totally disgusted right now. My Christmas spirit went bye bye and I am not even sure I want it back at this point.

Hope you all are having a better day than I am.

So I think I am going to finish reading my trashy romance

JYC Entries 16,17,18 & 19

Okay I am almost all caught up I have to take a picture of my tree for Day 11 and do todays entry and I will be all on schedule

Day 16

Day 17

Day 18

and Finally day 19 that was done on the actual 19th

So today I am going to do todays entry and try to do the 11th also. I have loads to do today so lets see what will get done. Oh and while doing my entries last night I found a bunch of new supplies I bought for this years journal that accidently were hidden well at least I found them in time for using them in this years journal and it makes a bigger stash for next year.

JYC Entries 10, 14 & 15

I am trying to scan and catch up on the actual pages even though I have been journaling as I go. Here are a few more entries for my Christmas Journal

Day 10.

Day 14

Day 15

okay time for me to go and be a productive adult once again.

Running Running and more running

yep that is what has been on my plate recently major running. I have had so much I want to do and trying to get it done is making me tired and feeling totally like ick.

Here is some more Journal Your Christmas catch up

Day 9

Day 12

Day 13

I have a few more entries to catch up on and want to get most of that out of the way today and tomorrow. Also need to make more gift tags and do those handmade gifts and the clock is ticking.

Have a great day.

Skewed Perception

That is what I am dealing with. I have been trying to find some different stores to shop in since I am no longer in plus sizes and I am having a terrible time finding anything I even remotely like. I want to get something new to wear for the holiday season and I can not find anything. I look in the mirror and I don't see any weight gone I still see the Fat Chiara and I know rationally that I don't look like that but irrationally I still see her. When does that go away does it ever. I know I have quite a few more pounds to loose and I am determined to do it but I hope the skewed perception doesn't continue to rattle me.

So any suggestions on where to shop. I am now into a Large/xtra large shirt. Size 14 pant.