and to be quite honest I am not a 100 percent why. I know part of it is J, things have been super tough with him. He isn't sleeping, he isn't listening and he just never gives us a break. I have slowly been letting go of my expectations for him and that is extremely hard.
I have been making excuses with exercise and working out which puts me in a bad place also. It means I am letting myself down.
I have decided today is a new day and I am just going to take things in smaller steps and control what I personally can. So i am starting today with getting up and exercising first thing in the morning at least 4 days a week that means it is done and out of the way.
Today I am starting drinking 8-10 glasses of water today.
If I do these to things for a week or two I will feel accomplished and hopefully the sour mood I have been in will go away.