I seriously can't believe that I haven't updated since July. Summer is over. The kids are in school and the activities have all started. Life hasn't slowed down at all. Sometimes it feels like I am drowning but just like Dory in Finding Nemo I just keep swimming. I just keep swimming.
In a few weeks I turn the big 4-0 and when I hit milestone birthdays I think about things I would change and honestly I wouldn't change much. I am blessed with a fabulous husband and two great kids. The one thing I would change if it was ever in my power is that there would be no more kids with Autism Spectrum Disorders. I know I am lucky because J is rather high functioning with his main deficit in expressive language but what I wouldn't give to have a normal kiddo conversation with him. Since J was diagnosed 2 years ago I am constantly learning things and I am meeting some amazing people and children I never would of before. So instead of being bogged down in the poor me of having a child with ASD I am trying to help the boy have the most normal life he can and I take victory in the small things like I am lucky because J will give me several hugs every day.
He is beginning to play appropriately with C (who is the best big sister). He seeks G out to be tickled and he understands what we say and follows directions. Now if only potty training wasn't a total mind game of control I would be ecstatic.
I am truly blessed to have my little family and everything J is teaching us even if I am too exhausted to do anything a lot of days. Also considering that we could of lost J when he had his surgery after birth I will take it so I am focusing on the positive.
Today I am going to be finishing a present for a little girl having a birthday this week, even if the present is going to be a little late. Then I think I need to make a list of shirts and things I need tomake for our next trip to see the mouse in 84 days.