I will be the first to tell you that I love my son with every fiber of my being. He is my little miracle boy but today was one of those days where nothing would calm him down. He bounced off the walls from the moment the speech therapist left and nothing would get hime to focus or listen. The only good thing was there were no meltdowns.
You see the squinty eyes in this picture this is what I got all afternoon, everytime I said something. Today it meant I am not listening to you. I am doing my own thing and you are SOL. I love this kid but man there are many days I am at my wits end with him.
I know it is a fools dream to wish for things that I will most likely never see with J but I still wish for them. I also worry so much about how hard things are for him. Simple things like saying yes, no, I want, Mom and Dad. Asking for a drink. Little things and big things are just so hard and I wish I knew what to do do make it better for him. To make it easier. I know I am one of the lucky ones though because I can see the happy little kid inside. The little kid he wants to be if we could ever get rid of the frustration of not being able to do the things he does want to do.
Oh well tomorrow is another day and hopefully it will be a little easier for both J and us.
