My Next Thirty Years

Gearing up for competition season

This is Miss C's second year on the performance team. Tomorrow is the parent showcase for the performance team and C is doing a solo this year. She is doing her solo to Jessie the Yodelin Cowgirl.   

 

The song is from Toy Story 2. So me being me. I wound up putting together because honestly I didn't feel that her Space Cowboy Costume was just right. Here is what we put together. I made the skirt and found the other items on ebay

I will definitely take a better picture tomorrow when we are getting dressed for the showcase  tomorrow so you can get the full effect.

Amazed at times...

I struggle at times with being a good Mom to Jimmy. Can I give him what he needs? Is how much we love him enough to help him overcome his deficits? Is everything going to always be so hard for him to master?

There are then other times I am simply amazed by this child of mine. Today we had one of those moments and I cherish it. 

It was bath time and J walked into the bathroom took off his pants and pull-up, then he put the potty seat on the toilet and climbed up. He sat there for 2 minutes and then I took him off for his bath. I knew he did not have to go. I told him good job for all he had done. It just simply amazed me that he had all those steps down. We only really started training yesterday.

I know I am Jimmy's mom for a reason and I love him to pieces but the inner struggles I deal with are deep. I am really and truly insecure about it all.

I am really trying to take joy in the little things he does that show me he does get some of it. 

Today was a nice day with the family, the four of us watched the Daytona 500 and none of our drivers were contenders in the end but what an exciting race watching Trevor Bayne win in only his second Sprint cup start. A feel good story.

Catch you all on the flip side.

It is the small things...

This week has been about re-discovering and the small things. Taking each day and moment as they come and trying to control what I can and nothing else. Let me tell you something it was a pretty good week.

I worked out Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday. I drank all the water I planned to and limited my consumption of diet soda. It was all about making good choices for me. 

I also decided to myself that J is never going to be like other kids so I need to embrace how he is and take him as he comes. I also decided I need to find out more answers about how to help him. I am looking into a developmental pediatrician.

It still makes me sad that he really doesn't talk and play like other kids but I am finding joy in the moments he does call me Mom or when he wants a hug from me or he asks for help by grabbing my hand. I am learning to live in what I call the World According to Jimmy.

One of the things that I rediscovered this week is that when I work out every day I am a happy a person. So I am continuing my goal of drinking all my water and working out at least 4 days per week.

The other thing I rediscovered is that I am extremely lucky to have a great husband who gets me no matter what and takes me warts and all. Just wish we had time for a little date with out the kids now and then but I am sure we will eventually figure that one out. 

Well tomorrow is Saturday and I am hoping for the energy to do something fun and creative.

Catch you on the flip side.